How to break free from a toxic mother’s control
Living under the influence of a toxic mother can make you feel constantly chased, pressured, and never good enough. You rush from one meeting to the other, from one patient to the other, from one client to the other.
Your agenda is full-booked for the entire year, and half of the next one. Courses, refresher courses, continuing education. The latest technology, the best software, the most modern device, do not forget your study at one of the best universities. All to make you the first choice, the most popular, the super-admired leader, doctor, coach.
You are professional, kind, patient, easy-going but terribly stressed out. Your smile is tight, your body tense, and even when you walk your dog, you feel as if you are being chased.
Signs you’re controlled by a toxic mother
It’s your mother!
She always says she wants the best for you. Really? Couldn’t be that, in reality, she is using you to satisfy her own sick need for appreciation, validation, admiration? She could never be at the center of the world as she wished. But when she had you, you became the perfect way to realize her dream, that later became your nightmare.
Your narcissistic mother projected all her frustrations and expectations on you. You were too little to understand that she was molding you to remake herself, to realize her dreams, to feel the greatness she craved for and never achieved.
And so, even now that you are an adult, and whether she is alive or not, she pulls the strings to ensure that you continue to move as she wants you to move, to make her feel grandiose, unforgettable, and indispensable.
How a narcissistic mother uses emotional manipulation
You bow your head to her requests, you even lie to please her, because there is something inside you that’s afraid to contradict her.
Your agenda is in her hands, your work-structure is in her hands. She proudly tells everybody of your achievements, even the ones you’ve not realized yet, of how busy you are, of how splendidly you work, and of how remarkable are your capabilities. And attributes your success to her.
Your mind is saturated with the poison that she makes you drink when telling you what you need to hear: you are good, you are the best, you don’t want to disappoint me after all I have done for you. She wants you to adore her by constantly reminding you of what an amazing mother you have, even if there are no facts to support her claim.
This type of emotional manipulation often leaves long-lasting effects, known as the mother wound, which can be healed with time, self-awareness, and support.
The Mother Wound and its lasting impact
You know that something is wrong: her attitude lacks depth, her words are empty of sentiment, and she has never shown any interest in your emotional needs. This is why you have always felt invisible, as if she never saw you or understood you. That’s because when she looks at you, she sees herself. And she needs you and your energy, to stay alive.
The mother wound shapes how you show up in relationships, work, and even how you see yourself—and healing from it is essential for reclaiming your life.
Steps to break free from guilt and control
Coming to terms with your toxic mother
You can cut the cord with your mother and teach her how to behave with you. This might not be easy in the beginning, but it will be the best decision you’ve ever made. Because you will reclaim your space, your sanity, your right to be sovereign. And with all that comes your freedom.
You don’t have to be your mother’s source of energy. Define your boundaries and let her feel them, let her feel that you are no longer available to play her game. It isn’t your fault that she didn’t realize her dreams, that she isn’t happy, or that she failed to meet her own expectations. That was a problem she never had the courage to face.
You can disconnect from her emotionally and energetically, so that even if she has to be around, you can keep her at a safe distance. And she will respect that because you respect yourself.
Disconnect from a toxic mother and break free from guilt
It is also important that you liberate yourself from the sense of guilt you might not be aware of, as it prevents you from cutting the cord. This sense of guilt has been used by religious doctrines to make us accept suffering or unpleasant situations that we wouldn’t naturally accept. This is why you “respect” your mother no matter how she treats you. But you don’t have to.
You can liberate yourself from her damaging influence by working on yourself. And if you are open enough to see the lies behind the indoctrination, you will set yourself free. You deserve to live your own life, sane, healthy, and prosperous, and not one dictated by your toxic mother or anybody else.
Healing from a toxic mother and reclaiming yourself
Healing from a toxic mother is a journey back to yourself — a journey that starts with embracing self-love.
By prioritizing your well-being and nurturing your inner strength, you take the first step toward healing from a toxic parent and reclaiming your life.
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